I woke up the other morning with the song lyric: "Don't think twice, it's all right" running through my head. I actually had to google it before I knew the rest of the song...and to tell the truth, it’s not the Bob Dylan version I hear in my head, But that’s not surprising; the song’s been covered a gazillion times. I do that a lot. I'll be going about my day and finally get quiet enough to realize I've been repeating a single phrase on a feedback loop for hours. I think of it as my inner voice saying "I've got that answer you were looking for, if you'll just listen." And usually, that answer comes in the form of a song I haven't heard in ages, one I think I've forgotten completely (it was the Moody Blues recently -- Really? I haven't listened to the Moody Blues since I was a teenager). But the words stuck on that loop always have something interesting to say to me. The other morning, the message was to ease up on the second-guessing.
I think it’s natural, when you’re going into something new, to second-guess yourself, whether you’re looking at a new job, or relationship, or living situation, or even a pair of shoes. (That last one may just be me.) One one level, you’re making sure the direction you’re headed is going to take you where you really want to go. But there’s a point at which all that second-guessing keeps you from a) committing, and b) relaxing.
Cuz it's not the thinking twice that's the problem; it's the self-doubt not letting you commit to a plan of action, telling you your decisions need to be validated by someone else, keeping your guts suspended in the turmoil of indecisiveness, which drains you. Think of the energy that could be freed up if you could just put an end to the “should I or shouldn’t I?” If you could know “it’s all right.”
In working with a healer friend of mine the other day, she caught me out in my second-guessing of an old, old decision, asking me “Who are you to judge the way the Divine moved through you in that moment? Are you going to tell your Divinity it was wrong because, looking back, the results now cause you some pain?” It’s a perspective I admire, though I can’t get a grip on it all the time.
And now, as I look forward to an astrologically, professionally, and personally busy April, the admonition to "not think twice; it's alright" seems appropriate.